mmmmmm.... big layoffs.
very rude awakening. shocking.
yuck.

mo lata...

damn,
been lame about writing. or writhing as my fingers always want to type.
got to go to the dept of licensing this morning to renew my expired drivers license.
how come they expire on your birthday. not a lot of sense there.
mostly just getting ready for ohio and west virginia. and sleeping.
i spent yesterday afternoon asleep on my couch and finally made it into my bed by 9:30
i am recovering from years of lack of sleep. duck doesn't like it and wakes me up all the time.

went and saw the fabulous dina martina at rebar on saturday with ms. molly. laughed lots. if you get a chance to go see her (dina), do. and remember, those in the know watch for the camel toe.

this week. i am writing off before it even begins. phone calls and errands and not much else will get done. i can only fit so much into my days...and am trying not to feel guilty about it.

my head is really far up my ass and i can'tquite see the light
i am sure it is out there somewhere but i think i am staring at the box too much
if you know what i mean too much work ugh.

been training for a dropping of the apex bomb on se ohio. dropping science ya'll. in the form of ap chemistry, physics, calculus... also dropping the humanities mmmmmm.... fly little babies, fly.

so, i been busy.

i miss writing. i miss things.
i can't wait to see what i really miss when i am gone for 3 weeks.
crazy.

n.

ok freaks and freakettes,
i am off to go celebrate my birthday in the snow.
how excited am i? why do i never anticipate this excitement when trips are being planned? i love the tangibleness of going to be someplace else, the feel-ing i get waiting with the sure knowledge that i will get to... meet new people, sit and read in the sun, carve some sweet spring tracks.

ahhh snowboarding, you lovely excuse to be outside. i sing your praises on my three year old bought used board. I shout hosannas to you as i ready my all red snowclothes that make me look like a big tomato cruising down the hill. thou art divine.

still got some last minute packing to do. got all my drugs to stash... my prednisone, my pentasa, my vitamins a,c,e, etc... i eat over 30 pills a day... with a doctors note of course. ahhh snowboarding ahhh it is good to be alive.

i wanted to write lists of 31s for this birthday. inspired by my old friend rowland... not my wise idea....

but some of the catagories were...
i was hoping to do books, movies, places, things, garage sale items, memories.
perhaps i will get to them...but right now i have a cat settling on my typing arm.... and i don't thing she is going to move.

i need to spend a little time with her, so she remembers me while i am away.

sayonara suckas,
n.

In case anyone forgot let me remind you.
Tomorrow I turn 31. ahhhhhhhhh.

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it's gone now. don't worry.

where have i been?
ummm.... shoe shopping. comforter buying. sushi eating. work overdoing. beer drinking. older getting. slap happy. lustfully gazing. beard shaving. moustache having. moustache shaving. relieved being. relaxing with the monsters. writing to long lost friends. dreaming of big waves. anticipating weird adventures. learning how to do sales. still doing product manager stuff. thanking god i have a career. ohhh... lecturing/seminaring at evergreen. that was fun. even though it broke my style. for this post. i mean.

on my stereo:
Burn one down
ben harper.

the same is on my mind.

gone for a while.
blogger not healthy last time i tried to post.
all is well. got a sales trip coming up to West Virginia, SE Ohio and Kentucky. 3 weeks on the road in the Appalachians. leaving on the 7th of May.

good weekend. spent money on clothes for the trip. Casual wear will not do. I guess i can manage. hung with brady a bunch, kim and her friend steph stopped by last night and spent the night. they were on the tail end of a roadtrip. we ate thai food and drank a couple bottles of wine.

not much other news to report

caleb nelson. if you are out there listening. this ones for you.

last night watched legend of drunken master with jackie chan. it kicked all kinds of ass.
fell asleep on the couch with my fat cat on my belly to keep me warm. slept with my socks on.

got much work to do.
must be a motivated soul.
must not submit to lethargy.

though it would be so dreamy.

hi.
i am making a big white bean soup, it is now simmering in all of it's salty goodness with a hambone and soon to be joined by onion and celery and rosemary. pure happiness.

our carpool got rearended on the way home from work. stopped bus about to pull out. we stopped. one two three four five crash! I was in the back seat and got jerked around a bit. i think i am alright, but i definitely feel a little out of place about mid back. grrrrr. cars are ok.

busy day at work, but fortunately mr. reecks ping pong table is a great boon. excellent little 10 minute breaks.

"One can contemplate the Emperor and his powers comfortably if one remembers that all things are finite", Scytale said.

Dune Messiah
Frank Herbert

http://www.x-y-z.it/
check it out.
a really dear family friend worked on a piece of this site that was funded by benneton. very cool shit. i was a little hesitant at first but got sucked in. wow. what a fun project to work on.

ahh...that wasn't too painful.

ok. who hid all my tax forms?

who has time for taxes?
ugh.

3 weeks in pennsylvania?
ok.

now turn on
tune in freak out this is a game
the name of the game
Rock and roll night and day

paradise now. meat beat manifesto. thump thump.
all your razzmatazz is final.

a little early morning shopping.
trying to get in half of Grosse Pointe Blank before the worky witching hour.
gee, i like minnie driver. mmmmmm

went out and saw jake's band "The Consul". they were rocking. good to see maxy and brooke too. mmmmmm...

trash talking girl trash talking at the bus stop.
wanted to tell her to shut up, but couldn't be bothered.

now finishing up Steve Martin's "the lonely guy" before going to bed.

body is diary love cooperation edition way ragtime point sculpture with tears and the world handbook holderlin think the volume

-thanks nate.
although your oracle is not as wise as a bottle of makers mark, a smoke, a plate of oysters and a conversation with you, it does in a pinch.

went back to bed till 11:30 then walked downtown to spend some cash and to get out of the house. bought a couple pairs of pants so i can look semi professional if i need to, a big ol sweatshirt to replace my crusty one that i have been sweating in for 5 years, and watched the hoards of folk that congregate on sunday, ate a sausage with kraut, drank a melon soda, gave some fella 75 cents, ran into the lovely ms. dilworth and chatted for a while and then shuffled on home. now being mellow to the fine noises of olu dara.... love to go to the movie show y'all. may work up the energy to go see Jake's band play tonight at Gibsons and maybe a video before hand.

perfect sunday.

I seen the light.

when i was a tot my ma used to get matt, maria and i in front of the window at the start of the day, open the curtains and say "good morning world!". I still want to be the first person to welcome in each new day. while this does have it drawbacks (i haven't yet met the woman who shares my 4 am proclivities) it does gain me much needed free hours during each day.

spent yesterday with brady couch shopping, hanging with peter and his lovely new woman friend Karen and her son Julian (kick ass little kid!), and generally being lazy. fell asleep in the middle of Charlie's angels after watching the Tao of Steve for the second time in less than a week. I made brady watch it (TOS.. thanks for the recommendation Dave) because the humor struck so close to home. Hilarious movie, though it did make me squirm a bit.

So Jen is gone. Half way around the world. I am sad, but a little relieved. The extended weeklong goodbye was a little trying on me. We had such a nice drive down the coast, but that little niggling voice in the back of my head kept reminding me that she would be gone in 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 days.....which put quite a grey cloud over everything.

today... shit.
i should work. a sentiment that would get me smacked by my friends. I am finishing up laundry started yesterday. drinking tangerine juice and eating toast with marmite (yum... bizarre food fetish akin to my natto lust). a snowboarding trip is in the works by sr. maxy and zach... not sure if i have the gumption to go get sore but i may... I am the homebody when i can these days. Books, TV, and the dreamy internet are my friends. I spent a couple hrs over the last couple days creating a book wishlist for myself... not so that I could refer people to it, but so that i could set myself up with a reading list that saves me pondering (what do i want to read) time. I am trying to complete my James Laughlin/Hayden Carruth collection, finding a few gems by Eduardo Galeno that I don't have and some other assorted stuff. I really need to update my book list on sneakyfreak.

soon soon. so many shoulds.

i am happy in my lonesome house.

3:00 am kind of morning.
thinking about work and its many suprising twists and turns.
was offered a promotion + new job yesterday... and am mulling it over. I am very tempted by it, but not willing to go do some huge job unless I am fairly compensated... In a muddle and need to talk it over more with my boss. The job would be very challenging... which appeals to me. It would be a chance to turn a floundering product line around and redefine it. It would be a chance to shine shine shine... which I love. Also to work with some great people and build a much needed service for teachers. grrrrrrr.... why do these great opportunities always come at me out of the blue... and in multiples. I was all psyched to go travel and work on selling... and now this cool building job comes along. I shouldn't complain. in fact, I'm not really... just needing to make a decision.

had dinner and drinks with ryan and jen last night at the capitol club. it was great to chat with ryando. I need more time to hang with him.

photos of the trip from SF->Seattle

hmmmm. word on the street is that i may get to hit the road again soon to do some sales stuff outside of seattle. could this be the bandaid i need to cover my seeping travel lust wound?

Miles travelled by car = 1,908
(Las Vegas-Los Angeles-San Francisco-Seattle)

on the stereo for most of the trip.

Orishas- a lo cubano
Gillian Welch- Revival
Olu Dara- neighborhoods
Maktub- subtle ways
Modest Mouse- A long drive with nothing to think about


Represente Cuba!

post vacation depression.

it is a nasty, nasty thing.

back home. litter box cleaned. cat hair vacuumed. plants watered.
wow. now that i am here it all seems unreal, which is the danger of vacations and other reality checks.
whatever it takes to smack me upside the head and say hey...there is a big wide wonderful world out there, and it doesn't stop just because i have my head down in a website that i am building for the greater good of apex or paul allen or my student loans or whatever the hell i work so hard for. it actually makes me really sad. my god, the beach. i don't know how to describe the pure joy i felt at being breathess from being beaten by a wave or the value of friendship that i felt hanging with brandon. whales, elk, sealions, (roak kill count coming soon... i asked jen to keep track, bad habit from living in africa days when the count would include 6 goats, 1 1/2 donkey, a camel!, 4 dogs....) big trees, waves, cliffs, rocks. mmmm god's country. dave, i changed my mind... southern california would be a wise move. i am sorely tempted by weather and the ocean. crazy.

need snack. i think this description of vacation is going to come slowly, over time. nature of the beast.

quick post. i will expand on this later.
in p-town at my sisters. wonderful drive up the coast. sexy curvacious driving. elk. seals. dolphins. paul bunyon and babe the blue ox. curiosity hill. redwoods. gods country. beef jerky. curly motel. nice people. vacation.

i'll be getting back to seattle today. more then.